Thanksgiving 2012

it's one of those days..bored to death.

don't get me wrong. i have tons of stuff to do and things to take care of, but instead i'm procrastinating. it's nothing new and i do it all the time. who am i kidding--i'm being very lazy because i don't feel motivated. i feel unmoved. i feel like blah. i don't feel sad. i don't feel happy. i don't know how i'm feeling.

i'm on a week break from work for the thanksgiving holiday. i've been spending my time doing things that are not on my priority list--for instance watching t.v., sleeping in, wasting time, etc. pretty much avoiding the thing that i need to do the most while i have all this free time. today, i slept in, watched t.v., somewhat cleaned up my closet, and watched the movie "you've got mail" for the nth time. it never fails to cheer me up and make me feel good inside..temporarily.

now that i actually feel like i'm stepping into the world of adulthood, there's a feeling of uncertainty. i don't know if i'm fit for this lifestyle--if i can endure all the trials. i don't know if i can prove to myself and everyone else that i am worthy to become an official member of this society. i feel that i've accomplished the things that i wanted to accomplish, but at the same time, i don't feel like it's sufficient. i'm just tired of having to prove myself all the time. i must be going through something right now. i just don't know what.

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  1. exactly my thoughts and feeling right now sis. pakiramdam ko nagawa ko na yung best ko na pero wala pa rin. ang hirap maging adult kahit na di pa naman ata talaga ko adult sa lagay ko haaay

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    1. ang weird diba? parang feeling ko dapat satisfied na ko or at least starting to get satisfied, pero hindi pa rin. ah ewan..

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  2. Sa line na 'I don't feel sad. I don't feel happy." Nakaka-relate ako jan....'Yan ang sakto moment at nakakainis lang kasi emo mode rin ang drama nyan... Ok na rin yan kaysa depression...

    Yes... I just followed you!

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    1. uy ngayon medyo ok na ko ah.. i feel happy now. lol. parang tanga lang.. ano daw?

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    2. Basta ang gusto ko at ang gusto ni Sen Enrile, Happy Ka!

      Kahit parang tanga lang...

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